What are my goals in life? Well, to be quite honest, I don't have many. I only have one, and that's to
be happy.
People assume that achieving things will make you happier, and while it does, it only lasts for a short time until you're forced to search for something else to achieve, and thus it's a vicious cycle. If I can't find the inner peace and happiness I long for without all the bells and whistles, well, I'm not entirely sure it's the real thing.
I want a happiness that comes from inside. Something that's constant despite external things.
Yet, consistently, I'm made to feel like a failure because I simply do not wish to do anything. Because I'm OKAY with my meager existence, and I don't want for anymore than I already have. I can provide for myself on the money I earn. I can even have luxuries with the money I earn, and buy frivolous things. I can save up for a vacation. It might take a little longer than it could, but it will happen. I'm okay with this.
Yet, I feel like a failure because I AM okay with this. I feel like I should be motivated to achieve something greater. I feel like I should want a higher paying job, and that I should want other things. I feel like I should want a job that works only five days a week. I feel like I should want a job that pays more than 8.50 an hour. I feel like I should want so much more, and the only thing it's doing is making me miserable because the truth of the matter is: I don't.
